Majesty

Cool thing that happened to me today: 

 When I prayed this morning before leaving for church I asked God to show me what he wanted me to learn today, this isn't a normal practice for me - but lately I haven't felt like I have been learning or hearing anything that is taught. I always seem to have a hard heart and not want to hear what is being said. I feel like this has been a successful way the devil has been attacking me, so today I prayed for God's help.

When I got in my truck to go to church my music was playing a song called "Your love shines" by Scott Cunningham Band. The first line I hear is "I fall to my knees, at the sight of your majesty". A beautiful line all in itself.

Then we sang a song in worship about God's majesty (I can't remember it, and I think it actually used the word majestic, but lets not be nit picky).

Then, Pastor Steve is preaching and he referred to a section in Daniel about Nebuchadnezzar. In this section it Nebuchadnezzar says "Is not this great Babylon, that I have built for a royal dwelling by my mighty power and the honour of my majesty?" I know this is talking of Nebuchadnezzar's majesty, but the sections depicts the difference between human majesty and God's majesty. Well it is talking about Nebuchadnezzar's humiliation, after he makes a declaration about his majesty. A stark image to me about the differences between human majesty and God's majesty.

Then when I get home and on my computer the first song that plays is Majesty (Here I am). This was not on purpose. I have my Itunes on random and shuffle. I just hit play and pause as I go away from my computer (thank-goodness for the mini player). I had somehow managed to stop it in between songs, so when I hit play Majesty started.

I think God wants me to know about his Majesty today.

Patience

This is just a prayer that came to my heart when doing my Bible study today. I thought I would share it as patience is something that I feel is lacking in my life. I pray that these words can bring comfort in times where it feels like patience is so far away:

God, how much I love you. I’m so glad that you wait for us. I thank-you for waiting for me these past few months, I call out your name and feel your warm embrace. I am so blessed to have you as my God. Help me to stay close to you, not to stray too far ever again. Your patience amazes me, Lord, bless me with that patience and give me strength to call your name when I walk away. Bring me back to You each and every minuet I’m alive. Let me breathe in Your life, Let me live my life for You. God You are so wonderful I don’t know what I would do without you in my heart. Help me to show you to others through Your everlasting patience.

Survied

Well thus far I have survived my dental surgery. Thank-you to everyone who sent prayers up for me, it means a lot. I am not completely out of the woods yet.....but I am feeling okay. I have some pain, which was to be expected and swelling (I've got some nice chipmunk cheeks going on), and as of this morning I have some slight bruising on my left cheek (which is the one tooth he had to grind bone out of his way, so this is not surprising either). I just have to keep up on my antibiotics/antibacterials for the next two weeks or so (until their gone) to prevent any infection. I don't mind taking these pills, if it means a better recovery. I have some dietary restrictions, but it mainly goes with how I am feeling. Right now I am not ready to attempt solids, so last night's dinner was a milkshake and breakfast this morning will be a bowl of yogurt. Just going through the recovery process.

No longer 22

I'm writing a birthday post today. I would be writing it wearing a birthday hat, but our dollar store doesn't carry any (which seems extremely odd to me, and less fun), however they do sell those colourful tube shot glasses. It seemed like the next logical choice (I was able to talk myself out of that one).

I think I'm just going to do this numbered, mostly cause I just have a bunch of random nonsense to write about:

1) Being 22 was awesome. Last year on my 22nd birthday I went to an Ottawa senators game...for those of you that do not know - I LOVE (AND THAT IS A BIG LOVE) HOCKEY! I guess it is my Canadian roots, and the Senators are my favorite team. I know I'm never going to top this birthday, but every year I'm going to try. I figure the worst case scenario is I still have an awesome birthday, even if not quite as awesome.

2) Even though I went through a lot this past year, I wouldn't have changed any of it - not even a second.

3) Sticking through it - There have been times this year where I have felt like quitting, school, my job, my friends, the gym....pretty much everything. But I taught myself this year that perseverance is a beautiful thing....although not always glamorous. This is a quality I've always wanted and looking back at this year, I think I finally have it.

4) I can do anything - This is something that became a reality this year. With God I can do anything!

5) Looking forward - Each day brings something new, something that I am excited to face.

6) My birthday so far.....I've got some awesome presents so far, nice cards, tons of well wishes....the best coming from my best friend Ellen, while she couldn't be here she sent me "Happy Birthday" via text message and told me to imagine it in her best operatic voice. So naturally, I imagined a batman operatic voice. Your Welcome!

What has been your best birthday memories?

Just Today

Today, is just a day
a day like any other day.
Filled with thoughts of
love, peace, sacrifice, and healing.

Today I am reminded
that life is short and sweet.
We need to always remember to
love, laugh, dance, and smile.

Two days from now
I won't be the same girl.
A year older, I will be
A year smart I wish too.

With age comes wisdom,
joy and peace too.

I really have no idea what the heck this is. I just kind of started typing and this poem thing came out. I think I'm getting sick of writing all the school papers, that my creative side just let itself out of the cage and broke free. I'm going to post it because as I want to improve my writing I think that includes all genres of writing....even those that we don't intend to write.

Jealous of the Angels

There is something I have been trying to say for a while now, but the words just keep escaping me. I lost my dad almost six months ago (November will be six months). I've wanted to share how I'm feeling for a long time, but I can't seem to find the words - I have been listening to the song "Jealous of the Angels" by Jenn Bostic for the last six months and feeling a great peace from it. When I actually looked up the lyrics, I realized it is what I've been trying to say all of this time. I thought I would share both the song and the lyrics with you.

Jenn Bostic – Jealous Of The Angels

I didn’t know today would be our last

Or that I’d have to say goodbye to you so fast

I’m so numb, I can’t feel anymore

Prayin’ you’d just walk back through that door

And tell me that I was only dreamin’

You’re not really gone as long as I believe

 

There will be another angel

Around the throne tonight

Your love lives on inside of me,

And I will hold on tight

It’s not my place to question,

Only God knows why

I’m just jealous of the angels

Around the throne tonight

 

You always made my troubles feel so small
And you were always there to catch me when I'd fall
In a world where heroes come and go
Well God just took the only one I know
So I'll hold you as close as I can
Longing for the day, when I see your face again
But until then

God must need another angel
Around the throne tonight
Your love lives on inside of me
And I will hold on tight
It's not my place to question
Only God knows why
I'm just jealous of the angels
Around the throne tonight

Singin' hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah

I'm just jealous of the angels
Around the throne
Tonight

Jenn Bostic - Jealous of the Angels

Writing Again

I read through my whole blog the other night - I thought it would be scarier than it was. I did notice one bith thing!

 

My Writing has gotten worse, as my education and practice have increased.

 

I stewed on this for a few days, and determined that the reason for this is my lack of commitment and dedication to my blog. I used to spend days or weeks formulating just one blog entry. Now I usually whip one out in a matter of minuets, more as a chore than something I want to do.

 

That is why I have decided, since I got a new blog format only a few weeks ago, that I should update my writing to a new format. I have become a better writer and an older smarter woman - it should show it in all that I do.